I slammed on the brakes and felt the back wheel begin to slide as my body braced for impact.
This was NOT good 😑
I was in Thailand, racing down the highway on an orange Kawasaki Z800, on my way back from Doi Inthanon, the highest mountain in Thailand.
Everything was good… until it wasn’t.
That seems to be the way with motorbikes.
I’m fine and everything is dandy as I drive 178x the speed limit…
…and then some idiot in an Oldsmobile Vista Cruiser Wagon decides to turn onto the highway.
I mean, SERIOUSLY RIGHT!????
Can Thai Joe Dirt not see that this thin strip of flexible hot mix asphalt pavement is MINE?
Thankfully, that bike had ABS brakes, so instead of sliding into oncoming traffic while screaming like a banshee, or slamming into Thai Joe Dirt’s Wagon’s PHAT ass, I lived to write an email about it.
15 seconds later, I felt the adrenaline. Heart racing and blood pumping, I let out a scream that had been caught in my throat.
That’s not the only time I almost killed myself on a motorcycle.
There were other times too. Leaning too low on corners. Hitting an invisible pothole. Spying a hot babe strutting her way down the sidewalk.
But despite looking death in the face on the reg, I didn’t stop. Not for a long time.
In fact, I enjoyed it.
It made me feel alive.
The more danger, the more alive I felt.
Fast motorcycles did it. Sex, drugs and alcohol too. Waterfalls that I should never have been jumping off. Skydiving.
The rest of the time, I felt… meh. Bored. Listless. Apathetic.
I lived my life in black and white… except for those moments of danger and near-death.
I thought it was normal. That I was just an adrenaline junkie.
But now I know that it was absolutely not normal OR healthy. Now I know that I was just stuck in something called “functional freeze”.
This is a function of the autonomic nervous system (“ANS” for short).
It works like this:
Shit happens. Then we feel bad. But since we don’t like feeling bad, we unconsciously shut the bad feelings out. We push them down, whether with alcohol, movies, food, porn or simply intention. Away. Out of sight and out of mind. We bury them so deep we forget we even have them.
But what we don’t realise at the time is that if we shut down our bad feelings, we also shut down our good feelings.
That’s the thing with feelings. You either feel ‘em all… or you feel none of them.
That was me.
I’d shut down and suppressed various feelings from the past because I didn’t want to feel them. As a result, I had to put myself in situations of extreme danger to feel anything at all. To feel alive.
Sadly, this is all too common.
And to make things worse, most people have no idea what it even is (or how to fix it).
They either think it’s normal because they’ve felt like a sack of potatoes for so long…
…or they’ve given up trying to fix it because it’s just so god damn sticky and hard to shift.
There. Is. Hope.
See, while I still ride motorbikes, I no longer push things to the limit like I used to. I don’t need to. I feel alive already. I don’t need extreme danger to make me feel more alive.
It’s all due to the tools and techniques inside Rageheart. Tools and techniques for breaking someone out of functional freeze and into health, vitality and full-blooded ALIVENESS (aka. UNLEASH THE BEAST INSIDE YOU).
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