Does It Work?
Nah... It's all bullshit. Obvs.
...harder than I expected, but once I got used to it... it silenced my mind like never before.
Man I f*cking love your newsletter - might refreshing to read 😉
Loved doing Rage 19 just now. After meditating and doing mindfulness work for 10+ years, I just realized that most times I “observe” my breathing I’m actually controlling it or altering it almost every time.
Also, I’ve done multitasking awareness before but never making such small movements and stopping at friction points to observe what’s going on. From 1 mm to the next, I had completely different internal experiences. Wild!
If you normally roll your eyes and say "blah... blah... mindset stuff. Yeah, I get it.", I strongly suggest you give this another look. I can report that it helps calm that inner voice down... a LOT almost instantly.
Okay, so I just did it and it feels pretty freaking cool, man!
I went about doing some mundane chores while trying it and I wasn’t in my mind, and as a result, I wasn’t caught up in my usual anxiety inducing thoughts.
I’m doing it to some extent while writing this email as well, which is interesting because I was worried it might not work with anything that requires ‘thinking’, since articulation, description and expression of ideas is a thought related activity, but it does seem to work here too. With a little practice I think I can get better at it.
It’s almost like I’m consciously activating a flow state of that makes any sense…
The Daily Rage is great. It's clear, crazy, raw and real. The techniques are perfect. it's like lucid dreaming while awake.
really enjoying the Rageheart program - thanks
The week before last I was moving steadily through my rages at my own pace. Practicing feeling awareness throughout my day more than I’ve managed in a while.
I didn’t really notice a major difference other than.. well, feeling more aware. Which IMO is pretty huge.
But the real difference became apparent as work got more demanding.
I had to stay late working on things to meet a "version release" deadline for a web app software product my team is developing. A series of miscommunications and several things entirely out of my control, led to most of the work I'd done (staying late) becoming pointless. The icing on the cake was two different "higher ups" leaving very triggering passive aggressive comments on some of the other work I was behind on... But I had to handle many more urgent issues-- none of which were simple easy fixes...
(Aside: It's fine most of the time and my direct team is amazing, but when these urgent deadlines come up, communication breaks down and it's really not the best environment)
Anyway, I was extremely triggered upon reading those messages. I think it would have been triggering regardless, without rageheart, but my recent practice with awareness made everything seem so much more raw. I got very upset and could feel the emotions viscerally. I almost literally rage-quit because of the rage in my heart (😏) but luckily I was able to ground myself with the orienting practice. It wasn't a "fix" from experiencing the emotions-- I don't think that's its purpose anyway-- but it did really help prevent me from losing myself to my emotions.
Later that night, I learned the pendulation technique. I love this technique so much. (It started me down a rabbit hole of its own, researching about energy work and moving awareness through the body)
Exploring pendulation helped me fall asleep that night, and practicing it kept me sane the next day, where I was able to take a step back and not take my coworkers and bosses' treatment personally.
I had to take a whole week unplugged from rageheart to sit with my emotions and recharge. Today I resumed, covering the "Threats" lesson.
I just wanted to share... because these skills (and life in general) are becoming interesting and much more "real" to me very rapidly. I find the timeliness of the lessons with my daily experience amusing. Although I think rather than coincidence, the Rages are simply such foundational skills that the opportunity to exercise them are daily (sometimes hourly) occurrences.