I am smashed

John Wood, Founder of Rageheart

by John Wood

Tired. Beat-up. Exhausted.

It’s hard to think…

…and hard to write.

I feel like I’ve just finished a marathon or perhaps one of those workouts where you almost vomit.

I think I know why too.

Each day, before I write this email, I’ve been making rages (lessons) for Rageheart.

In the rages, I teach all the things I’ve talked about in these emails.

How to feel the ground while orienting to the environment.

How to resource effectively to soothe and settle your nervous system (instead of resorting to unhealthy coping mechanisms like alcohol, porn, shopping or 17 blocks of chocolate).

How to recognise when survival stress is coming up for processing, release and integration.

How to work with specific emotions and survival responses (like anger, fear or shame).

How to use movement to build your capacity to be IN your body instead of in your mind.

Plus so much more.

Just like I talk about in these emails, these rages are intentionally designed to stir shit up.

Old emotions from the past.

Old memories.

Old sensations that were never properly felt.

Old programs, limiting beliefs and unhealthy ways of relating to ourselves and the world.

All the stuff that holds us back, gets in our way and weighs us down.

That’s why I’m tired, exhausted and beat up.

Because I’m not some enlightened guru who has cleared and cleaned all the shit from my nervous system.

Because I still have stuff that’s buried.

And when it comes up, while it doesn’t always wreck me for the day, sometimes it does (like today).

For example, today while making the rage, I noticed something starting to move.

The first cue?


Me a few hours ago.

I became a yawning machine.

You might think I was tired… and that would be an understandable assumption.

But after doing this work with my nervous system for 3+ years, I’ve found that yawns are not simply a result of being tired. They’re often a sign that the nervous system is shifting gears. And very often (especially for me), they usually signal that some charge is coming up for processing.

So the yawns.

Yawns so big that it felt like my jaw might explode off my face.

Once I noticed that happening, I left the computer and sat down somewhere quiet to let my breath run free and feel into the body.

That’s when I noticed it. The breath.

It wasn’t my normal breath.

It was slightly elevated – a sign that the sympathetic (fight-or-flight) side of my nervous system was activating.

I continued to feel, the yawns kept coming and my breathing carried on increasing.

Eventually, it developed into growls and snarls and screams – a hallmark of the fight response.

That played out for a little while and then the whole system reset.

The yawns stopped.

Breathing returned to normal.

And I came back to baseline, feeling lighter but also like I’d been hit by a bus.

Just another day at the Rageheart office 🤣

Building Rageheart isn’t like building most courses.

It’s not simply a pile of information to fill your head with.

It has the potential to shake things up internally in a big way – both for the person going through it and apparently the person making it 🤔

In some ways, this makes building Rageheart quite challenging.

Some days, making a rage (or writing an email) is easy and smooth and I’m done in a couple of hours.

But days like today?

Something comes up for processing and I have to take a break to give it time to move… and then afterwards, I can barely keep my eyes open.

It’s challenging, sometimes frustrating and always unpredictable.

But you know what?

I wouldn’t change it for the world 😍

I LOVE this stuff.


Not like. Not appreciate. LOVE.

I love what it’s done for me (and what it continues to do – despite the “getting hit by a bus” feeling).

And I love hearing about how it’s working for people going through it.

That’s why, despite the challenges and bumps and curve balls, I’m beyond excited for Rageheart and the inspiring, courageous people signing up to regulate their nervous system, remember who they are and unleash the beast inside them.

On that note…

I had 7 Welcome Calls with new Rageheart clients this week… and I felt so excited after every single one 🥳

To see other people taking the tools and most importantly, applying them to their day-to-day lives.

To hear about how it’s working for them. Emotions coming up. Memories surfacing. New insights dropping. How all of a sudden, everything makes sense. How they’re realising why they are the way that they are – and how to heal at the deepest level.

I’m not gonna lie – the positive feedback was great too.

How they love how the course is designed. How the bite-sized rages are perfect. How the support is fast, responsive and unique. How it’s shaking things up for people sometimes within the first few rages.

I can’t wait to see what they do with Rageheart and who they are on the other side.

If you’d like to join them (and me) inside Rageheart, sign up for a free trial and test it out for a week or two without risking a penny. See if it resonates. Find out if it’s the thing you’ve been searching for without realising it.

And if you’re up for it, remember to book your welcome call so we can meet each other on Zoom, chat a bit and I can answer any questions you might have ☎️

Get started here:


Already a member and feeling the impulse to stir some shit up? Hit the “Sign In” link on that page and get stirring 😎


John Wood

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